What else is there to do...
When you expected to be a mom, and instead you're a miscarriage survivor struggling with infertility? 

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Here We Go...

I went in on Thursday for my follie monitoring ultrasound.  My lining looked good at 9 mm, and I had one 24 mm follie on my right ovary.  I triggered that night, and we went in yesterday for our first IUI.

We ended up with 5 million swimmers for the IUI.  My RE said it looked good, but from what I've read, 5 million really isn't too good of a number.  I'm sure you'll hear more about this from me, since I've started obsessively reading about sperm counts and thinking about what it means ;)

The IUI itself was a little more painful than I expected, and I had some cramping afterward.  I had an acupuncture session right after to help me relax, and by the time I left, the cramps were gone.

Something about the whole morning just left me feeling really down, and I feel like I can almost put my finger on it, but not quite.  I think I might devote a whole post to it in a few days.

For now, I'm adding in progesterone and baby aspirin, and hoping that I get a BFP in a couple weeks so I don't have to think about IUIs and sperm counts anymore.

How Fun!

Thank you so much to Hope at Invisible Mother for giving me The Stylish Blogger Award!

The rules for accepting this award are:

1.  Thank and link back to the person who awarded you the award.
2.  Share 7 things about yourself.
3.  Award 15 other bloggers.
4.  Contact the bloggers and tell them about the award.

7 Things About Me:

1.  I love being outdoors... camping, hiking, canoeing, I love it all :)
2.  I am an obsessive TV watcher on Netflix.  If left to my own devices, I will sit down and watch all the episodes of a series (Season 1 to the end) without watching a single other thing.
3.  I have two dogs that I love to pieces.  One is a 6 year old border collie mix.  The other is a 2 year old mutt of some sort.  They look like sisters, and they love cuddling!
4.  I am working on a Master's degree in Me.dical Mic.robiol.ogy and Immu.nolo.gy right now.
5.  When I was little, I fell through the ceiling into the living room.  It made me famous for a while.
6.  I have lived in 3 different states.
7.  Most days, you can find me wearing a fleece or a sweatshirt.

I am giving this award to (I can only make it to 10):

1.  Jen at Discovering Joy in the Storm
2.  Keya at Stolen fertility... and my quest to find it
3.  Jay at Stork Stalking
4.  msshamisdavis at The crazy ramblings of a confused soul
5.  b at The Journey to Our Three Little Kilos
6.  Shortcake4813 at My Journey to Motherhood
7.  HopeBPatient at Eggs Out of Time
8.  Stephanie at All Things Conceivable
9.  LifeLine at The Baby Chase Project
10.  Paula at Wyatt's Ways

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Another Cycle...

AF arrived yesterday for me, but I am surprisingly not too down about it.  I'm feeling more numb than anything.  And anxious.  I feel like there are so many decisions to be made right now about treatments that it is kind of overwhelming.

I think as of now we are on track for a Femara cycle with IUI... our first IUI.  I'm feeling kind of ambivalent about it.  We will do that for 2 or 3 cycles, take a month or two off if I feel like I need it, and then dive into injectables with IUI.  Come on, something, WORK!!!

I also decided to start acupuncture.  I'd been thinking about it for a while, and took the plunge last week.  The session was kind of relaxing, but afterwards I felt tired and out of it for a while.  Nothing too bad, though.  My period arrived with less cramps than usual and with more of a normal red flow (which I think is better than my usual super light, spotty flow).  I was telling my husband that in the 2 years I've been off the pill, I have never gotten through CD1 with this few ibuprofen.  Maybe the acupuncture is already doing its job!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

2011 is finally here!

I'm so happy to be able to say goodbye to 2010.  It was an awful year for us, and now we can look forward to a better year in 2011!

Starting with (I hope) being able to get pregnant.  I ovulated yesterday, which I think is pretty fun timing.  Maybe we can conceive our little one during the transition from the worst year to the best year!  I went for my u/s on Wednesday, and I had one 24 mm follie on my left ovary and 2 15 mm follies on my right ovary.  They gave me my trigger shot there.  My lining was 10 mm so that looked good, too.  I had some pretty strong ovary pain and pressure, and my temperature really shot up this morning, so I hope that means it was a nice strong ovulation with at least one of those follies releasing a lucky egg.

I have been doing a whole TTC regimen this cycle.... Geritol, extra folic acid, warm lemon water once a day, spearmint tea twice a day, lots of PreSeed around ovulation time, and now I will add in a baby aspirin daily during the TWW (and of course 5 mg Femara CD3-7 and an HCG trigger on CD14).  Phew!  That's a lot of work.  But I am phasing out temping... only doing about 5 days before ovulation and 5 days after.  

I was REALLY down for a couple weeks there... I don't know if it was the BFN combined with the holidays or because I had so much hope last cycle, but I was in a funk for sure.  And right on ovulation day it was like a switch got flipped and now I am SO hopeful for this cycle.  Come on bean, get yourself snuggled in!