Today on Facebook, I saw that an acquaintance who recently had a baby had posted:
If God has blessed you with a baby and you are forever thankful, like this!
I usually don't get too upset about pregnancy/baby-related Facebook posts, but this one was just like a kick in the guts. It's actually awesome that she is so thankful to be able to be a mom, and it's such a great sentiment, but it's really like a slap in the face to think that I should have been able to click like to that, but instead my baby was taken away. I have not been blessed with a baby, and I don't know if I ever will be. And that really hurts.
The only thing that would be true about where I am right now, would be:
If God has ripped your baby from your uterus and you are forever bitter, like this!
So much hurt, so much sadness, and so much bitterness. This whole loss and infertility thing really sucks. I would give anything to have my baby. I guess I can only try to hope that someday I will be the new mom posting happy things like that on Facebook.