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When you expected to be a mom, and instead you're a miscarriage survivor struggling with infertility? 

Monday, August 30, 2010

It's Official!

This morning when the alarm went off, I put my thermometer in my mouth and waited for that all important number to pop up.  I had been crossing my fingers for three mornings in a row.  If it was below coverline, then I didn't ovulate.  Do not pass O, do not collect any HPT's.  If it was above coverline, then I ovulated on Friday.  One small step for Fertile Myrtle, one giant leap for Mrs. Unexpected.

And what popped up after that annoying little beep?  97.90!  I ovulated!  And even though no one IRL will celebrate with me (or even know about it), it makes today an awesome day.  I got to plug my temperature into my Fertility Friend chart and get cross hairs!  I think my ovaries just did a little dance.

And to top it off, on Saturday, just as my little egg was traveling down my Fallopian tube, waiting to get fertilized by one of Mr. Unexpected's swimmers, I found out that there is such a thing as Baby Dust.  No, not the metaphorical Baby Dust that we all sprinkle on each other in the online infertility and loss community.  But real sparkly dust that someone can sprinkle on you in real life while saying "Baby Dust".  Even though they have no idea that Baby Dust is something we all drool over and lust for and dream about every cycle.

Yes, on Saturday I got sprinkled with Baby Dust.  And even though it came out of a blush brush, and even though it was glitter, and even though the girl who sprinkled it on me was not a fairy, it's gotta mean something, right?


Hannah said...

Hoping you have good news!

Visiting from LFCA

rebecca said...

Congrats on the good news, hope things work out for you soon:) Stopping by to say hello & welcome from LFCA!

lady pumpkin said...

Hi there! Dropping by from LFCA. And I'm doing a little dance right there along with your ovaries, because I've been at 97.9º for the last three days (8, 9, and 10dpo, according to FF, although my crosshairs are dotted because I'm taking progesterone)! Let this be your cycle and mine to get a BFP and have that baby stick. Please? And baby dust--sounds like just the thing! Take good care.

Katie said...

Here from LFCA.

I am a fellow recurrent miscarriage survivor and wanted to extend my greatest condolences on your loss. I do have two children now, but losing my babies was the hardest thing I have ever experienced.

I wish you all the luck this cycle.

Leslie said...

Hi-- I'm here from LFCA and my experience was similar to yours-- we started trying around the same time as you, got pregnant right away- lost it- got pregnant right away again- ectopic- and then the long, miserable, barren months began... For us, I got pregnant again on our last cycle before meeting with the RE. I hope your story has the same outcome, THIS MONTH!

I know how awful and painful it is, and how no one else can understand. And the hopelessness and thinking you'll never be happy again. I am glad you decided to start this blog- the blogging community is wonderful, full of smart and funny women who understand what you are going through. I couldn't live without them!

Jay said...

Hi..wannabe single-mom-by-choice here. My story is a little similar to yours in that I had a missed miscarriage too after my pregnancy going off to a lovely start.

I'm so sorry for your loss and also the difficult journey you have had so far. In your last blog post you mentioned lovenox, what diagnosis did they come up with to prescribe that for you?

Mrs. Unexpected said...

Leslie, thanks for sharing your story. It seems to be so rare to have infertility issues after a loss. It's good to know that I'm not alone, and that it is possible to get that dream ending!

Mrs. Unexpected said...

Jay, I'm sorry for your loss as well. Missed miscarriages are so devastating.

I will be on Lovenox for my next pregnancy because I was diagnosed with a clotting disorder caused by a Prothrombin or Factor II mutation. I was only tested because a close family was diagnosed after a str0ke. It is one of the milder clotting disorders, but my RE is willing to treat it.